Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I am at an extreme low

Oh god....Well I caught Fred looking at porn on the internet. Now I am not talking a little looking, I am talking a whole lot. Well I feel like that is really sick and it makes me really insecure.

But I can't stop thinking now that he could be cheating on me, or has or does, or whatever. I am losing my mind with the pain of it...I cannot deal with lying men. I had too much pain before and I cannot do this again...

I did ask him and he said "no I couldn't do that I would feel tooo guilty"....but they all say that.

Anyway I am hurting but see no end because I don't know if I will ever trust him....I feel so betrayed.

Leah

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