The summer is here and I have sooo much to do...

Well, I am now on summer holidays. I am finding it difficult to relax and not plan for next year. I went to Kelowna to visit my brother and his wife with mom and Mindy. I found I relaxed for awhile, but was a pretty big bitch...

I am back and again am faced with the need to get my stuff together for next year. Will it ever end?

And the year trudges along

Well, I am still kicking, still teaching. I am having a complete blast, but also huge challenges. I am constantly frustrated by time being taken away from my instructional time when I am already at a loss for time due to teaching split classes. I am feeling huge guilt as I feel my diploma students are going to suffer due to this lack of time. It does not seem fair that I have no control over this....

I am considering decoupaging desks in my class. I love doing "projects" with my Junior High students that is not available for my time crunched High School students. Someday I hope to get it all together...LOL

1st Semester draws to a close as do the holidays

Well I am drawing to a close with my first semester of teaching. Everything went so quickly. I at least now know the things I would do differently and the things I would continue...The students seemed to gain a lot of knowledge with watching Gandhi...

I am worrying about my future. Fred does not want to move East(where my school is) and I only am .75 and it seems to me that that is all it will ever be. SO I guess I will need to search out other options. I do find it frustrating to not be making any money(my income pays for the childcare and my gas, and then we end up paying for me working there as oil chnges and wear and tear is costing us money=I pay to work in my school).

I am also a bit behind in the planning mode. I will need to tighten my ship to start keeping up...I am anal.LOL

So now I am teaching

Well I have now been teaching for a month and a half. My god I have never been so busy in all my freaking life. I don't even see the end to all this craziness...will it ever end, please?

I am so slow at getting my act together, but then I am teaching only .75, however I actually teach more due to split classes and suiting the different grade levels=Foods 7/8/9 (3 classes to plan for, but is only programmed at 1), English 7/8 (again 2 seperate plans, but in a single class, and Social Studies 10-1 & 10-2 (again taught in one class period, but needing two entirely seperate plans, assignmnets, notes, and 2 texts for me to read....also as a new curriculum I have absolutely no support...LOL)

I have missed my nephew and nieces birthdays, what a freaking jerk, and I have not gotten presents for them as well as my little cousins birthday that I attended. I feel like a real class act! Hayden's birthday is also coming up and I have done pretty much nothing. I feel like a negligent parent. How am I going to get this together. I must really get more time managed or else put more time in....who needs sleep anyways?

As for teaching it is so freaking awesome. Wow I can't believe I get to do this.

Relief and anxiety are mixed in how I feel about the fall

Well as the fall creeps closer I am feeling both relief and anxiety. Wendy came over and helped me to figure out how to plan for a Junior High English Class. I have started getting this organized but cannot go to far as I am unsure of resources at this time. I might just start compiling a variety of resources.

I am anxious on how I will cope with an entire year of teaching as I have never done that before. I know how busy and stressed I was during my students teaching phase. I guess I will just have to pace myself or starty drinking heavily.LOL

I will sign off and get my butt in gear with planning

Leah

I am sooo confused

I am feeling a bit overwhelmed lately.I am not sure if it is just being finally finished university and facing the "real" world or if I am just a freak...LOL

I have attained a job, which is great but there are always drawbacks....it is a "part-time" 0.75 position, which I thought would be more full-time (not sure really if it will not turn in to that). So it also is a hour and 10 minute drive from my house, which is not a huge deal to me but the cost in gas is what now has me bugging out. It will roughly cost me $600 a month just for gas....so with a part-time position and potential pay I will be making nothing....I have to pay the $1200 a month daycare for the kids, which is fair seeing that Fred pays for everything else, but than tacking on $600 in gas is a bit of a squeezer.

I am sooo confused and overwhelmed with all these decisions along with not knowing exactly what I am teaching, when and whether I will have my own class. I am also unsure how to plan....how will the classes work in the end (they are split classes).

Yeah so I just needed to vent, but maybe I would feel better if i got some bloody unit planning done.

Leah

Well things are much, much better

So My friends,

I am better. A good chat and some veiled threats to Fred have left me feeling much happier.LOL No kidding, well maybe not. Anyways we have come to an agreement on the end of his "fantasy" world as well as if he strays I will be worse than lorraine Bobbit on his ass.

So I thought I would just make sure that was updated.

Leah